29 February 2012

wordless {sort of} wednesday: blast from the past

Something tells me that the warning signs of her stubborn-do-it-her-way-Attitude have been there all along.
Ps.  Happy Leap Day!!

wordless {sort of} wednesday: blast from the past

Something tells me that the warning signs of her stubborn-do-it-her-way-Attitude have been there all along.
Ps.  Happy Leap Day!!

27 February 2012

a monday morning list

Happy Monday morning!  Since today is all about getting my house back in order after fighting off sickness and doing little else all last week I thought I would also work on a little housekeeping here as well.  I have a few observations/comments/ramblings that don't really warrant posts on their own and thought I would get them out of the way first thing this week.

1.  Does anyone else have an iPad and hate using it to write blog posts?  There are some evenings when all I want to do is curl up on the couch and watch TV while I type.  Except blogger on the iPad is annoyingly not user friendly.  Do any of you out there have a suggestion or an app that makes things easier than going directly to the blogger.com site through Safari?

2.  The Hunger Games.  This is a trilogy that I have recommended to several friends and family members over the course of the last six months.  The silly thing is while I have recommended it to people, I, myself, have never read them.  Last Wednesday I was having a hard time falling asleep and figured that I'd start the first book because why not.  Cut to the wee hours of Thursday morning and I was almost half way done.  I could not put it down.  Book one led to book two which led to the last one.  Poor Mabes and Dan have been left to basically fend for themselves all weekend because I just could not tear myself away.  Tweens can have their Bella and Edward love story (GAG), I'd take Katniss and Peeta anytime.

3.  This week is an especially busy one.  The bad news is I might not be on here much in the coming days.  The good news is I am going to have a whole bunch next week to tell you about.  I cannot wait!!

4.  Yesterday after church I made Dan and Mabes go take family photos with me.  These are two of my favorite photos:
Dan and Mabes
Like Dan's squint?  Even though the weather was cold the sun was inescapable.
Mama and Mabes

6.  Because I don't like to end on an odd number, anyone have plans or traditions for Leap Day?  If so can you tell me about it in the comments?  I was thinking it would be fun to try and do something with Mabes this year but all that Google likes to tell me is that girls can propose to guys on February 29th so I need some help.

a monday morning list

Happy Monday morning!  Since today is all about getting my house back in order after fighting off sickness and doing little else all last week I thought I would also work on a little housekeeping here as well.  I have a few observations/comments/ramblings that don't really warrant posts on their own and thought I would get them out of the way first thing this week.

1.  Does anyone else have an iPad and hate using it to write blog posts?  There are some evenings when all I want to do is curl up on the couch and watch TV while I type.  Except blogger on the iPad is annoyingly not user friendly.  Do any of you out there have a suggestion or an app that makes things easier than going directly to the blogger.com site through Safari?

2.  The Hunger Games.  This is a trilogy that I have recommended to several friends and family members over the course of the last six months.  The silly thing is while I have recommended it to people, I, myself, have never read them.  Last Wednesday I was having a hard time falling asleep and figured that I'd start the first book because why not.  Cut to the wee hours of Thursday morning and I was almost half way done.  I could not put it down.  Book one led to book two which led to the last one.  Poor Mabes and Dan have been left to basically fend for themselves all weekend because I just could not tear myself away.  Tweens can have their Bella and Edward love story (GAG), I'd take Katniss and Peeta anytime.

3.  This week is an especially busy one.  The bad news is I might not be on here much in the coming days.  The good news is I am going to have a whole bunch next week to tell you about.  I cannot wait!!

4.  Yesterday after church I made Dan and Mabes go take family photos with me.  These are two of my favorite photos:
Dan and Mabes
Like Dan's squint?  Even though the weather was cold the sun was inescapable.
Mama and Mabes

6.  Because I don't like to end on an odd number, anyone have plans or traditions for Leap Day?  If so can you tell me about it in the comments?  I was thinking it would be fun to try and do something with Mabes this year but all that Google likes to tell me is that girls can propose to guys on February 29th so I need some help.

23 February 2012

a little of everything

Is it really only Thursday?  This week seems to be dragging.  Probably because at this point Mabes and I are both crawling the walls going stir crazy.  Since we have both been sick I have been avoiding the gym and going out in public as much as possible.  In part to give the antibiotics time to kick in so that my kid isn't a walking petri dish waiting to infect everyone else in the childcare room.  Also, because her immune system is low and I know that some parents don't care about the whole petri dish thing and will happily let their kid infect my kid so long as they get to workout.  Not going to the gym has resulted in a large amount of energy and no place to put it.  I seem to be able to focus for about 10 minutes at a time on any one task.

 Please excuse this post if it seems all over the place.
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My camera has been in the shop for a little over a week now.  Another thing that is making me crazy.  I am constantly reaching for it and not having it sucks.  The good news is that I heard it should be back today or tomorrow.  In other camera news, I was going through the photos that I have taken on my phone in the last week.  I believe I have a slight obsession with feet:
Feet
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As usual I have also managed to stumble across some interesting links that I thought were worth sharing this week:

Stuff People Say to Photographers:  Y'all wouldn't believe the number of times I have heard every single one of these things.  Have you seen other videos people have made about Stuff People Say?  They are hysterical.

My Body Gallery:  Interesting concept.  You can type in your height and weight and see photos of other people that are as tall and weigh as much as you do.  Kind of gives you a different perspective.

Textecution:  I am against texting and driving.  I love this little app and think it is worth the $30.  I wish that they had it for iPhones too.

Rules for Mother's With Daughters: I'm sure some of you have seen this on Pinterest and I thought a lot of the list was good enough to share here as well.

I Love Your Hair App: an app with user-submitted photos and information on where the haircut/style was done and what products, etc. they use.  For someone with serious hair issues like me this is a blessing.
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I am totally freaked out when I look at this photo of my girlie.  She is getting big.  The long hair, the longer legs.   I want to savor every single second of her childhood and just want to bottle her up.
Girlie
Why can't there be an app for that?

a little of everything

Is it really only Thursday?  This week seems to be dragging.  Probably because at this point Mabes and I are both crawling the walls going stir crazy.  Since we have both been sick I have been avoiding the gym and going out in public as much as possible.  In part to give the antibiotics time to kick in so that my kid isn't a walking petri dish waiting to infect everyone else in the childcare room.  Also, because her immune system is low and I know that some parents don't care about the whole petri dish thing and will happily let their kid infect my kid so long as they get to workout.  Not going to the gym has resulted in a large amount of energy and no place to put it.  I seem to be able to focus for about 10 minutes at a time on any one task.

 Please excuse this post if it seems all over the place.
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My camera has been in the shop for a little over a week now.  Another thing that is making me crazy.  I am constantly reaching for it and not having it sucks.  The good news is that I heard it should be back today or tomorrow.  In other camera news, I was going through the photos that I have taken on my phone in the last week.  I believe I have a slight obsession with feet:
Feet
________________________________
As usual I have also managed to stumble across some interesting links that I thought were worth sharing this week:

Stuff People Say to Photographers:  Y'all wouldn't believe the number of times I have heard every single one of these things.  Have you seen other videos people have made about Stuff People Say?  They are hysterical.

My Body Gallery:  Interesting concept.  You can type in your height and weight and see photos of other people that are as tall and weigh as much as you do.  Kind of gives you a different perspective.

Textecution:  I am against texting and driving.  I love this little app and think it is worth the $30.  I wish that they had it for iPhones too.

Rules for Mother's With Daughters: I'm sure some of you have seen this on Pinterest and I thought a lot of the list was good enough to share here as well.

I Love Your Hair App: an app with user-submitted photos and information on where the haircut/style was done and what products, etc. they use.  For someone with serious hair issues like me this is a blessing.
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I am totally freaked out when I look at this photo of my girlie.  She is getting big.  The long hair, the longer legs.   I want to savor every single second of her childhood and just want to bottle her up.
Girlie
Why can't there be an app for that?

22 February 2012

early a.m. art project

Anyone who has known me for any period of time can attest to the fact that I am not a morning person.  This trait is not conducive to the whole being-the-mother-of-a-toddler-lifestyle I currently lead.  I have learned to adapt and overcome.  Which means no one talks to me for at least the first fifteen minutes I'm awake and in return my head won't rotate 360 degrees around on my neck while I spew fire at everyone.  Anyone who has met Mabes knows that not talking for fifteen minutes is the equivalent of having her fingernails ripped out one by one.

My point is mornings can be rough around here.

I think we can all agree that no one likes to start their day off on a bad foot.  Recently I have been coming up with small tasks or projects to keep Mabes quiet and busy for at least 15 minutes while I will myself awake from underneath a quilt on the couch.

Recently I stumbled upon a great project that keeps her entertained for more than the 15 much needed minutes.  I can even go to the restroom and get dressed uninterrupted some mornings!  Today I thought I would share the miracle project with you.

I'm certainly not reinventing the wheel, but maybe there are some of you out there who had never heard of Ziploc painting before.  Hey, it's possible.  I hadn't until last week.

Ziploc Painting
1.  Gather your materials.  Ziploc bags and paints are a must.  You can also use some cardstock or note cards if you want to keep some of the paintings.  I suggest using a heavier type of paper because it will become very saturated and will easily rip.  As for the paint, I am sure that finger paints would work just as well.  I happen to have a ton of acrylic paints in my craft dresser and were the easiest to grab and pour into the bags.

Ziploc Painting
2.  Put paint into Ziploc bag.  I found that you don't want to be too skimpy on the amount of paint you put in the bag as it makes it harder to push around.

Ziploc Painting
3.  Add your cardstock/note card to the bag if you want at this point.

Ziploc Painting
4.  Seal bag shut.  Seriously, make sure that thing is sealed tight.  I also had Mabes work on a plastic placemat that was easy to clean up just in case.  Another good idea might be to tape the bag shut or down to the placemat to avoid any major accidents like the opening of the Ziploc.  Let your toddler smoosh the paint any which way they want.

Ziploc Painting
5. If you did add a piece of paper into the bag I suggest removing it as soon as it is covered in paint.  The longer it is in the bag the more likely it is to rip.

Ziploc Painting
The feeling of the paint squishing around in the bag is endless entertainment when you are four-years-old, I promise.

early a.m. art project

Anyone who has known me for any period of time can attest to the fact that I am not a morning person.  This trait is not conducive to the whole being-the-mother-of-a-toddler-lifestyle I currently lead.  I have learned to adapt and overcome.  Which means no one talks to me for at least the first fifteen minutes I'm awake and in return my head won't rotate 360 degrees around on my neck while I spew fire at everyone.  Anyone who has met Mabes knows that not talking for fifteen minutes is the equivalent of having her fingernails ripped out one by one.

My point is mornings can be rough around here.

I think we can all agree that no one likes to start their day off on a bad foot.  Recently I have been coming up with small tasks or projects to keep Mabes quiet and busy for at least 15 minutes while I will myself awake from underneath a quilt on the couch.

Recently I stumbled upon a great project that keeps her entertained for more than the 15 much needed minutes.  I can even go to the restroom and get dressed uninterrupted some mornings!  Today I thought I would share the miracle project with you.

I'm certainly not reinventing the wheel, but maybe there are some of you out there who had never heard of Ziploc painting before.  Hey, it's possible.  I hadn't until last week.

Ziploc Painting
1.  Gather your materials.  Ziploc bags and paints are a must.  You can also use some cardstock or note cards if you want to keep some of the paintings.  I suggest using a heavier type of paper because it will become very saturated and will easily rip.  As for the paint, I am sure that finger paints would work just as well.  I happen to have a ton of acrylic paints in my craft dresser and were the easiest to grab and pour into the bags.

Ziploc Painting
2.  Put paint into Ziploc bag.  I found that you don't want to be too skimpy on the amount of paint you put in the bag as it makes it harder to push around.

Ziploc Painting
3.  Add your cardstock/note card to the bag if you want at this point.

Ziploc Painting
4.  Seal bag shut.  Seriously, make sure that thing is sealed tight.  I also had Mabes work on a plastic placemat that was easy to clean up just in case.  Another good idea might be to tape the bag shut or down to the placemat to avoid any major accidents like the opening of the Ziploc.  Let your toddler smoosh the paint any which way they want.

Ziploc Painting
5. If you did add a piece of paper into the bag I suggest removing it as soon as it is covered in paint.  The longer it is in the bag the more likely it is to rip.

Ziploc Painting
The feeling of the paint squishing around in the bag is endless entertainment when you are four-years-old, I promise.

21 February 2012

the girl can spin a yarn

Just a quick update on things around here today.  I still have no voice.  It fluctuates between a raspy whisper and a raspy screech depending on how loud I try to talk.  It is about the furthermost thing from music to anyone's ears.  Mabes it seems has also come down with a case of the sickies.  I'm taking her to the doctor in just a little bit.  Whatever will we do if the girlie doesn't have a voice and we can't hear stories like this for awhile?


In case you couldn't tell this was her telling me all about a dream she had where Dan and I turned into geese.  Also, did you catch her using the word realize in the video?  I'm not sure where she picked it up but this is her go to word and we hear it about 20 times a day as she will cram it into a sentence at all costs.  My favorite is, "Mama did you realize I have to go potty?"  

the girl can spin a yarn

Just a quick update on things around here today.  I still have no voice.  It fluctuates between a raspy whisper and a raspy screech depending on how loud I try to talk.  It is about the furthermost thing from music to anyone's ears.  Mabes it seems has also come down with a case of the sickies.  I'm taking her to the doctor in just a little bit.  Whatever will we do if the girlie doesn't have a voice and we can't hear stories like this for awhile?


In case you couldn't tell this was her telling me all about a dream she had where Dan and I turned into geese.  Also, did you catch her using the word realize in the video?  I'm not sure where she picked it up but this is her go to word and we hear it about 20 times a day as she will cram it into a sentence at all costs.  My favorite is, "Mama did you realize I have to go potty?"  

20 February 2012

the voice

Sorry for the absence.  I have been battling what was first thought to be a sinus infection or seasonal allergies for about two weeks now.  At the end of last week things started to get much worse.  As in I could barely get myself up off the couch I was so miserable.  Another trip to the doctor and they now think that I had strep.  The meds that they gave me seemed to have cleared up a lot of the symptoms.  Unfortunately my throat is still very swollen and sore and my voice is mostly a whisper.  When I do try to talk any louder I sound a lot like Kathleen Turner as Chandler's Dad in Friends and then pay for it with rounds of coughing and pain.  Needless to say I have tried to talk as little as possible.

Mabes has made it her mission to fill every second of silence:
Filling the silence
Hoping tomorrow is much better than this weekend was.

the voice

Sorry for the absence.  I have been battling what was first thought to be a sinus infection or seasonal allergies for about two weeks now.  At the end of last week things started to get much worse.  As in I could barely get myself up off the couch I was so miserable.  Another trip to the doctor and they now think that I had strep.  The meds that they gave me seemed to have cleared up a lot of the symptoms.  Unfortunately my throat is still very swollen and sore and my voice is mostly a whisper.  When I do try to talk any louder I sound a lot like Kathleen Turner as Chandler's Dad in Friends and then pay for it with rounds of coughing and pain.  Needless to say I have tried to talk as little as possible.

Mabes has made it her mission to fill every second of silence:
Filling the silence
Hoping tomorrow is much better than this weekend was.

15 February 2012

you spin me right round

I feel before I go any farther into writing this post I should warn you about something.  These are, hands down, the worst photos ever to appear on this blog.  Roller skating rinks, iPhones and being on skates or having a toddler on skates attached to you is total photo suicide.  I'm sorry, just not sorry enough to stop myself from sharing them with you anyhow.

A few weekends ago Mabes attended her first roller skating party.  Pumped is a good expression to describe how she felt going into the party.  Monster would be a good way to describe her once we slipped the Fischer Price skates on over her shoes.  She was a little shaky, to be expected when you are a first timer.  The screaming, yelling, tantrum throwing was not expected or all that welcome.

(Note the photo in the bottom left corner.  She was literally growling at me and all the blood was rushing to her face as she balled her fists in fury.)
Skating #2
I was allowed to walk out onto the rink in my shoes.  Mabes loved this fact and pretty much attached herself to me for the first half of the party.  Her favorite thing to do was make her body go rigid while I held her arms and basically ran down the rink with her (see bottom photo).   
Skating #1
This was all well and good until Dan and I decided to try and encourage and teach her how to skate on her own. More tantrums and fits were followed up by hesitation and then finally independent skating and even laughter. Mabes loved all the lights being projected onto the floor.
Skating #3
All in all the skating rink turned out to be a success.  Mabes even requested that we go back again soon.  Of course who can't resist the allure of disco balls, skates that fit right on your shoes and party favors that make you look like you are channeling your inner Elton John?
Skating #4
Not this girl.

you spin me right round

I feel before I go any farther into writing this post I should warn you about something.  These are, hands down, the worst photos ever to appear on this blog.  Roller skating rinks, iPhones and being on skates or having a toddler on skates attached to you is total photo suicide.  I'm sorry, just not sorry enough to stop myself from sharing them with you anyhow.

A few weekends ago Mabes attended her first roller skating party.  Pumped is a good expression to describe how she felt going into the party.  Monster would be a good way to describe her once we slipped the Fischer Price skates on over her shoes.  She was a little shaky, to be expected when you are a first timer.  The screaming, yelling, tantrum throwing was not expected or all that welcome.

(Note the photo in the bottom left corner.  She was literally growling at me and all the blood was rushing to her face as she balled her fists in fury.)
Skating #2
I was allowed to walk out onto the rink in my shoes.  Mabes loved this fact and pretty much attached herself to me for the first half of the party.  Her favorite thing to do was make her body go rigid while I held her arms and basically ran down the rink with her (see bottom photo).   
Skating #1
This was all well and good until Dan and I decided to try and encourage and teach her how to skate on her own. More tantrums and fits were followed up by hesitation and then finally independent skating and even laughter. Mabes loved all the lights being projected onto the floor.
Skating #3
All in all the skating rink turned out to be a success.  Mabes even requested that we go back again soon.  Of course who can't resist the allure of disco balls, skates that fit right on your shoes and party favors that make you look like you are channeling your inner Elton John?
Skating #4
Not this girl.

13 February 2012

we heart cupcakes

First of all, thank you to everyone for their sweet words of support and encouragement.  I am very blessed and thankful to have all of you and your kind words.  Seriously, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I thought since this is the last day before Valentines I would share one more kitchen project with all of you.  This was really easy, lots of fun and involved hardly any mess/clean up.

I had pinned a recipe for homemade cupcakes for two on Pinterest.  This recipe is a from scratch recipe and yields enough batter for two cupcakes.  They are, hands down, the best cupcakes I have ever eaten in my life.  They are also awesome because if your sweet tooth gets the better of you rather than attacking your waistline with a dozen, you can make two.  One for you and one for a friend.  Or two for you.  Whatever.  I won't judge.

There was also a pin about baking a heart into the middle of a cupcake.  This was another recipe I had wanted to try.  So I combined the two for a quick project for my little baker and I to tackle before lunch.

We decided to double the recipe and make four cupcakes.  This way we were sure to have enough for the hearts and also so that we could have a tester cupcake for a snack.  Ha!  If I were to do this again and make hearts or another shape for the middle, I would only make three cupcakes.  I'll explain why in a minute.

The first thing we did after making the batter was to take 1/3rd of the batter and color it blue.  We went with blue for two important reasons.  One, these were going to be a surprise for Dan and his favorite color is blue.  Two, we were out of red food coloring.

Next we poured our blue batter into a greased 8x8 pan.  The batter was very thin and didn't fill the bottom of the pan.  Don't worry this will make it the perfect thickness.
Heart Cupcakes #8

I watched the batter very carefully while it baked checking it every few minutes.  As soon as it seemed like it was baked enough to take a cookie cutter to it, I removed it from the oven and put it in the fridge.

Mabes and I ate lunch while it cooled.

Once lunch was finished and cleaned up we took a small cookie cutter and cut out four hearts.  One for each cupcake.  Looking back I wish I had used the smaller heart cutter we had instead of the second smallest.  Cupcakes aren't very big and you want something that will only be in the middle once fully baked.

We then put the hearts in the freezer.  We did this to keep them from over baking and drying out when they went back in the oven.
Heart Cupcakes #7

Next we took four liners and put them in our pan.  I marked hearts on the front of the liners to indicate which direction the hearts would be so that later when they were cooked I would know which direction to cut the cupcakes to see the heart in the middle.  We put a little bit of the batter in the bottom of the liners.

My little helper held each heart in the center of the liner while I spooned batter on either side.
Heart Cupcakes #9
Heart Cupcakes #4

One of our hearts kept falling over and I had to use some toothpicks to support it in the oven:
Heart Cupcakes #5
You can see that we didn't have quite enough batter to bake over the tops of the hearts here:
Heart Cupcakes 2.7.2012
This is why, looking back, I think we should have used a smaller cookie cutter and only made three cupcakes. This would have resulted in the heart not only being fully covered but I think it would have been supported better had more batter been on the sides instead of sticking out like this:  
Heart Cupcakes #6
Luckily I had a whole bunch of frosting in my fridge and so I just piled that on and you could no longer see the hearts.
Heart Cupcakes #2
When I cut our tester cupcake I didn't cut it right down the middle, as evidenced by the tiny triangle of heart on the left:  
Heart Cupcakes #3

Even though we had a learning curve as far as the hearts went I assure you they were delicious and every last crumb was consumed by that evening.

*All photos taken with the Hipstamatic app.

we heart cupcakes

First of all, thank you to everyone for their sweet words of support and encouragement.  I am very blessed and thankful to have all of you and your kind words.  Seriously, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I thought since this is the last day before Valentines I would share one more kitchen project with all of you.  This was really easy, lots of fun and involved hardly any mess/clean up.

I had pinned a recipe for homemade cupcakes for two on Pinterest.  This recipe is a from scratch recipe and yields enough batter for two cupcakes.  They are, hands down, the best cupcakes I have ever eaten in my life.  They are also awesome because if your sweet tooth gets the better of you rather than attacking your waistline with a dozen, you can make two.  One for you and one for a friend.  Or two for you.  Whatever.  I won't judge.

There was also a pin about baking a heart into the middle of a cupcake.  This was another recipe I had wanted to try.  So I combined the two for a quick project for my little baker and I to tackle before lunch.

We decided to double the recipe and make four cupcakes.  This way we were sure to have enough for the hearts and also so that we could have a tester cupcake for a snack.  Ha!  If I were to do this again and make hearts or another shape for the middle, I would only make three cupcakes.  I'll explain why in a minute.

The first thing we did after making the batter was to take 1/3rd of the batter and color it blue.  We went with blue for two important reasons.  One, these were going to be a surprise for Dan and his favorite color is blue.  Two, we were out of red food coloring.

Next we poured our blue batter into a greased 8x8 pan.  The batter was very thin and didn't fill the bottom of the pan.  Don't worry this will make it the perfect thickness.
Heart Cupcakes #8

I watched the batter very carefully while it baked checking it every few minutes.  As soon as it seemed like it was baked enough to take a cookie cutter to it, I removed it from the oven and put it in the fridge.

Mabes and I ate lunch while it cooled.

Once lunch was finished and cleaned up we took a small cookie cutter and cut out four hearts.  One for each cupcake.  Looking back I wish I had used the smaller heart cutter we had instead of the second smallest.  Cupcakes aren't very big and you want something that will only be in the middle once fully baked.

We then put the hearts in the freezer.  We did this to keep them from over baking and drying out when they went back in the oven.
Heart Cupcakes #7

Next we took four liners and put them in our pan.  I marked hearts on the front of the liners to indicate which direction the hearts would be so that later when they were cooked I would know which direction to cut the cupcakes to see the heart in the middle.  We put a little bit of the batter in the bottom of the liners.

My little helper held each heart in the center of the liner while I spooned batter on either side.
Heart Cupcakes #9
Heart Cupcakes #4

One of our hearts kept falling over and I had to use some toothpicks to support it in the oven:
Heart Cupcakes #5
You can see that we didn't have quite enough batter to bake over the tops of the hearts here:
Heart Cupcakes 2.7.2012
This is why, looking back, I think we should have used a smaller cookie cutter and only made three cupcakes. This would have resulted in the heart not only being fully covered but I think it would have been supported better had more batter been on the sides instead of sticking out like this:  
Heart Cupcakes #6
Luckily I had a whole bunch of frosting in my fridge and so I just piled that on and you could no longer see the hearts.
Heart Cupcakes #2
When I cut our tester cupcake I didn't cut it right down the middle, as evidenced by the tiny triangle of heart on the left:  
Heart Cupcakes #3

Even though we had a learning curve as far as the hearts went I assure you they were delicious and every last crumb was consumed by that evening.

*All photos taken with the Hipstamatic app.

10 February 2012

warning this gets a little depressing

Yesterday was one of those really yucky days.  You know the kind where nothing specific goes wrong but all the same you just end the night feeling like crud on the bottom of someone's shoe.

Last month someone who I had considered a very good, close friend said something incredibly cruel.  This person said that neither Dan nor myself put our child first and that we basically were terrible parents.
Rationally speaking I know that this couldn't be farther from the the truth.  This person has since retracted their statement.  Unfortunately, none of this has stopped me from letting the cruel words work their way into the cracks and crevices of my psyche so that I now question everything regarding my parenting.

Several friends and family members have started talking about enrolling their (younger than Mabes) children in preschool/kindergarten already.  This makes my stomach turn in knots because I wonder if Dan and I are failing our girlie by not having her go to school right now.  I wonder if people know that we tried to enroll her in preschool but the one we want to send her to is full unless we want her to go five days a week, full time; something none of us are ready for.  I also feel the need to justify our decision to keep her as one of the oldest in her class (she misses the cut off by six days anyhow) with regards to not starting her in kindergarten this fall.

Mabes has started doing this thing she calls quiet songs.  Basically she sits gazing out her window ala (insert whatever fairy tale/dramatic movie here) and softly sings to herself.  Most of the time the songs consist of "I wish I was a grown up now because then no one would tell me what to do."  Am I asking too much of my child?  Am I too bossy?  Controlling?  Is my child that sad and miserable she just wants to grow up and leave?

Every night when we put her to bed she screams, she cries, she gets herself so worked up she can barely catch her breath.  Why this dramatic craziness?  She doesn't like it when I go up to the office to work after she is in bed.  Am I a bad mother because I still go upstairs and work because that is when there is time?  Should I sit in her room and wait nightly until she falls asleep?  Should I give up trying to grow my business and focus solely on being her mom?


I constantly feel like I am failing my daughter.  

There has to be a way to stop this madness.  I need to remind myself that comparing my behind the scenes to the rest of the world's highlight reel is doing nothing but harm.  I need to retrain my focus.  Any suggestions on how to accomplish this would be much appreciated.  



warning this gets a little depressing

Yesterday was one of those really yucky days.  You know the kind where nothing specific goes wrong but all the same you just end the night feeling like crud on the bottom of someone's shoe.

Last month someone who I had considered a very good, close friend said something incredibly cruel.  This person said that neither Dan nor myself put our child first and that we basically were terrible parents.
Rationally speaking I know that this couldn't be farther from the the truth.  This person has since retracted their statement.  Unfortunately, none of this has stopped me from letting the cruel words work their way into the cracks and crevices of my psyche so that I now question everything regarding my parenting.

Several friends and family members have started talking about enrolling their (younger than Mabes) children in preschool/kindergarten already.  This makes my stomach turn in knots because I wonder if Dan and I are failing our girlie by not having her go to school right now.  I wonder if people know that we tried to enroll her in preschool but the one we want to send her to is full unless we want her to go five days a week, full time; something none of us are ready for.  I also feel the need to justify our decision to keep her as one of the oldest in her class (she misses the cut off by six days anyhow) with regards to not starting her in kindergarten this fall.

Mabes has started doing this thing she calls quiet songs.  Basically she sits gazing out her window ala (insert whatever fairy tale/dramatic movie here) and softly sings to herself.  Most of the time the songs consist of "I wish I was a grown up now because then no one would tell me what to do."  Am I asking too much of my child?  Am I too bossy?  Controlling?  Is my child that sad and miserable she just wants to grow up and leave?

Every night when we put her to bed she screams, she cries, she gets herself so worked up she can barely catch her breath.  Why this dramatic craziness?  She doesn't like it when I go up to the office to work after she is in bed.  Am I a bad mother because I still go upstairs and work because that is when there is time?  Should I sit in her room and wait nightly until she falls asleep?  Should I give up trying to grow my business and focus solely on being her mom?


I constantly feel like I am failing my daughter.  

There has to be a way to stop this madness.  I need to remind myself that comparing my behind the scenes to the rest of the world's highlight reel is doing nothing but harm.  I need to retrain my focus.  Any suggestions on how to accomplish this would be much appreciated.  



09 February 2012

valentines crazy

It seems this year we are going a little crazy with the whole Valentine's Day thing at our house.  Besides all of the baking the girlie and I have been doing this week we have also been squeezing in craft projects where we can.

Awhile back on Pinterest I came across someone who had used an old toilet paper roll to make a heart stamp.  I thought it was perfect for the valentines Mabes is planning to give her friends this year.  To start, I cut random strips of construction paper using regular scissors and pinking shears.  Then I cut out a small construction paper heart.  We then glued it all together.  After that it was up to Mabes to do some stamping.  She used one end of the toilet paper roll to make red hearts and the other made purple.  The paints we used were the Crayola finger paints.  Word to the wise if you decide to do this project, make sure you put some newspaper or a plastic mat down to help with the mess.  Someone got a little excited and started stamping my wooden table.  Thank goodness for washable paint!  
Valentines
Another easy craft we did involved a random piece of yarn, some left over heart shaped doilies from a project last year, and two pieces of scotch tape.  I love this festive little banner for the mantle.  Cheap, easy and entertaining for the toddler (or Gamma who helped her put it together).  
Banner
As for my favorite project from this year, I have to give credit to these adorable little Pottery Barn envelopes on Pinterest.  However, I didn't really feel like spending almost $20 with shipping to purchase one.  Instead I bought a large rectangle shaped piece of stiff, white felt for $1, a piece of regular red felt for $0.50 and some red and white embroidery thread for $0.33 each from the craft store.  I don't think it turned out bad for only $2.16.
Love Notes
Sorry I didn't take pictures of my creative process.  Honestly, I was so busy making it that I didn't even think to stop and document.  I will try and explain how I made it if anyone is curious.  If you have any questions feel free to send me an email.
Love Note
1.  I took the white felt and folded it not quite in half making it so that the top part could fold down creating an envelope type flap.  

2.  Using a sewing machine and some white thread to sew the two sides and bottom of the envelope.  

3.  With fabric scissors I cut scallops all the way around the white felt edges.

4.  Using the red embroidery thread I stitched all the way around the edge of the white felt.

5.  I sewed a little bit of Velcro from my craft supplies on the flap and on the envelope to be able to close it and keep it closed.  

6.  From the red felt I cut out a heart and using white embroidery thread I stitched around the edge of that as well.  This is also the point when I attached the heart to the envelope by laying it on the flap and using the embroidery thread along the top part to do double duty of outline and attaching it to the envelope.

7.  Using an exact-o knife I cut two little slices into the back layer of the white felt to slide ribbons that I already had through the back so that I could attach this to a chair.  

Mabes has loved this and checks it roughly a dozen times a day looking for notes from me and Dan.  I think we may leave it on the chair year round.  
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